Old Habits, easy to break?

Yeah, when something major happens to you, to your body, to a loved one…old habits are easy to break. When you value your life and those around you, its not all that difficult.

For me, it was a heart attack, only it wasn’t a heart attack since it was on the wrong side of my body. I woke up in the middle of the night and it felt like someone stabbed me under my right shoulder blade. I laid there uncomfortably and decided to get up and take a Tylenol. When I stood up, I dropped to my knees and then to the floor seized in pain. I painfully groaned to my wife for help. She helped me get going and opened the hatch in the car and I laid in the back. We rushed to the Emergency Room. ER’s aren’t fun at all. The staff there seemed to be numb to pain since they see so much of it. I waited for what seemed like an eternity for someone to help me. I was triaged as a lower priority I suppose. I can’t imagine if I was really having a heart attack. I’d probably have to pass out or writhe on the floor for help. I was finally admitted to a room and waited even longer. The doctor came in and looked at my history. I have had chronic back pain, so he didn’t even really diagnose me. He just gave me something for back spasms.

So I followed up with my own doctor and I was diagnosed with a gall bladder attack. My wife had already had hers taken out, so that’s the direction I was headed (only I kept it, more on that later). They ran my blood work and I had lipids out of control (not the good kind) and fatty liver disease.

What is strange about this is that I was active. VERY active! I ran ultramarathons. I was doing CrossFit on my own. I did powerlifting. I felt I had all my bases covered.

What I didn’t have covered was my diet. I figured, I ran 6 hours at a time; I could eat what I wanted. I was benching 315 pounds and squatting 405. I was the epitome of health for my age. And I thought I had good genetics. My grandpa drank and smoked all his life and lived to his late 80’s. When we had chili at his house, it came wrapped in butcher paper and looked like a slab of fatty meat. Then it melted in the pan as you cooked it. I was rebellious in thinking that I didn’t need to diet.

So my reason for writing is not to tell you what I changed. I am trying to tell you that I needed to change my way of thinking about diets. I see others in the same predicament. I see some who only diet and don’t do exercise. The two go together. Before something bad happens to you, please make the changes in both diet and exercise. The right changes. I saw this commercial yesterday for a device that you stand on and twist side to side. I see juicing diets and other fads. Believe me, that’s not that way to go. Educated yourself and do the hard work of finding what really works.

More to come on my journey. I keep learning and this process keeps changing. Do something for yourself before the Old Habits are broken for you.

5 thoughts on “Old Habits, easy to break?”

  1. I don’t like this post as an ER nurse. I agree we have become a shame to our profession. So many uncaring people. They see one thing in a chart, and automatically that’s what’s wrong. I like this post because I understand. I, too, face similar issues in a profession I’ve been proud of over 20 years. Such crass, unobservant, non-listening providers should be called out. I’m sorry on behalf of my profession, and hope they get to the root of your WARNING signs. I absolutely love your posts and outlooks on life, and am trying to learn yoga and meditation……..maybe I won’t kill a doctor or a co-worker haha. Be blessed. Be well. Namaste.


    1. I don’t say this lightly. I have two yoga students who are ER nurses. And I highly respect what they, and you, do. But I can’t lie that this was my experience. It was unfortunate for me. It wasn’t a simple diagnosis. I know how it works. But I was one that was looked over.

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      1. You are correct. I’ve done this job for years. Trauma, ER and Flight nursing. I have watched as the new residents roll in and the “old” attending’s just “throw them to the wolves” so to speak. I’ve seen residents learn more off nurses than doctors. There lies in a new problem. New nurses are not taught IV skills, critical thinking skills, nor patient empathy. It’s unfortunate for you to have experienced that. We should ALL try to exceed people’s expectations in all of our chosen career fields. Money means nothing if you hate where you work. This job, hating where you work can mean all the difference between a life saved and a life lost. I’m so sorry this was your experience, but scream it from the roof tops. It needs to change. Humbly, namaste.

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      2. This sounds just like the Army. New lieutenants either listen and learn from their sergeants under them or they crash and burn. I wish you much success in developing those in your profession. Namaste!

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